地上的日子

婆婆中風, 爺爺身體不便, 看見老人家被困在朽壞的身驅中, 天父, 我明白地上的日子並無可戀.
看見婆婆的臉容, 很扎心. 一次又一次, 看見自己不懂表達..
為她按摩, 為他洗便盤, 希望已能表達我不懂表達的愛..
禱告上帝帶領我把握爸媽健康時的相處.. 還記得媽受傷的那天...還記得那時的關愛.. 其實很希望有機會表達.. 可惜
可惜世事真的常變, 只有上帝不變..
我何時會明白你的旨意呢? 你可否把我放不開的心思解釋 給我知?
我何時會 joyful 呢, 我已經很努力了, 那時我已經很小心珍惜了, 現在我也很努力地往前走..
stella 問我會否做傻事...不會, 不是cindy 的 選擇... henry 會明白.. 那年我在van 淚流滿面的日子, 仍會抓緊目標熬過去,

以往很艱難的日子我也會熬過...只是這次觸動我的實在是死穴亦實在不明白和不願接受... 天父難到你不認同我的目標, 我的願望嗎?

很久未看見裡面的我了... 很懷念 pre-music 的我, 頌恩堂的我...心底發出的快樂..
曾經禱告多年所求的團契生活, 所求的那位交心...曾經也得到過... 但實在失去得太快了....

Happy 10th Birthday, Gloves

Mr. Yoars, thank you for bringing bells to Hong Kong and showed us the elegant instrument. Many pretty memories of mine come from the BU years.. See you in heaven and thank you for your missionary

Pre-music period:
Practice at the backstage of AC Hall, Until now I still remember George's saying.. if I could play any of Chopin's Ballad/ Beethoven's pathetique.. then life would have no regrets la..
George, I played la, though not very well.. Where are you? I miss our days studying and chatting together, Thank you for your encouragement and being there with me. still remember your visit in Vancouver, though we were too young... Great brother..
Debut concert in Hong Kong!.. How overjoyyed we were to get the full house!

Getting Back from Vancouver,
Still remember the days travelling 1.5 hours to Sheung Wan to practice bells. didn't like the gossip. what the heck, Bells were the only thing i loved.
Also the night of polishing bells until 1030 pm before the England's tour 2000...

last night, went to the 10th anniversary concert, though many of us quitted because of the gossip, I was still softened by the sonority of the bell.
Hope someday I could play bells again