Insomia

Haven't been slept well for few months. fatique cycles round and round. Today finally got a 5 hour long nap after coming out from the camp. Seems to be the first time good quality sleep for last few months. many thought stirring inside, still can't avoid making impulse decisions.. know that caused problems again. Doesn't like to be like this, but can't avoid silly decisions.. Need the courage to face consequences in everyday. Yet, learned that actually can't avoid making mistakes, same to other people, many things are done by impulses, Suddenly got relieved to many things done to me before. 舊事已過, 都變成新的了. As God's forgiven me, I need to forgive them too. And what I realize most is that it is so easy to make mistakes.

Dear God, i need to courage to face myself, to bare the consequences and to learn the lessons