where to go,where to stay

dear heavenly father,

would you show me how I should go on?
I don't bother to explain, let people think I am self-centred..
afterall, I am not good at expressing my deep feeling
I still believe I am genuine,
I believe you see my heart and my mind through
no matter how people in doubt of me,
I don't defense.

May I seek you first,
and soon your joy will carry my sorrow away

Dear Lord,
Would you grant me a close friend
coz I am all alone.

I don't wanna get into my deep dark hole again.
I know it can last for 2 years.
I don't have many 2 years to hide away
May your cure and blessing come to me
and Let me soar with joyfulness once again
and Let me see the beauty of your Will